The madness at work is do draining.. The drama from the teen stuff is so draining. Now the Boss messing with my time off in JAN>2011 is driving me nuts!!! This all plays on my mental side. It tears me down. Holds me back.
I have been thinking, how did I get through it all the year before, and not left it effect me so much? I really do not know. I just did it. I think I just ignored all the BS and just did it. So why was 2010 so different?? Why did I let the sprint triathlon play on me so hard?? I was in tears in May at the Half Ironman, cause I was scared to get in the water cause I couldn’t breathe in the sprint triathlon. So in turn my biking suffered, I stopped swimming, I stopped running/walking, I just stop.
I tried many times to re start. I did a duathlon that was located in a horrible location for a race, I had to stop in the race for a fire truck, the road was so ruff I was worried I was going to bend my road tire rims. I should had have off road tires. Then I couldn’t run. I couldn’t breathe. So my time suffered. Then I stop again. Plus all the teen drama and all the nonsense from that. I did a Night time half marathon and my times suffered. I couldn’t breathe. My toes and fingers tingled. It was so humid. My left calf muscle was shot. I lost nearly 30 minutes!
SO I stop. Again.
Now I know why I couldn’t breathe. I feel better. This is the end of week 3, and I feel good. Man can I smell. I can smell everything. I can walk the stairs at work, without loosing my breath. I can …. I am sleeping through the nights, getting more sleep. I wake up feeling better.
So now how do I keep my world from effecting my mental side without draining me so where I am not mentally tired to where I can’t train??
I see a triathlon in my future. Why?? Because I can breathe.